I’ve sat at the computer every day for the last few months. And these past few weeks I’ve been trying to think of something funny, witty, spectacular, deep, entertaining or even just slightly interesting to say, and I haven’t found it.
I think that’s why it took me so long to even start blogging. I keep thinking that I need to write something great for my readers and if I don’t, why should I even write.
Now I’ve noticed something about myself recently, I don’t know if it’s just me. I don't know why I do this. But it’s bothering me.
Any time I start to do something – right now, it’s the weight loss thing – I imagine myself telling people about how I did it. Oh no, not a one-on-one kind of thing. As a speaker. Now, I have done a little bit of public speaking at a few ladies meetings, so I’m not really afraid of it anymore. What bugs me is that whenever I think of my future success at anything, I’m always thinking of publicly speaking about it. I know, weird!
Most people are terrified of public speaking and I’m going around thinking about how to say something that will resonate with my audience.
Which brings me back to my first point – I don’t know what to blog about because I think it all has to be about success and “doing good”.
One of the things I’ve learnt about reading other weight loss blogs is that most of you write about “the good, the bad and the ugly”. You people are honest. I like that. I appreciate that. I’d like to be that.
So, here’s a few honest ups and downs.
This week has for the most part been pretty good. Monday was a weigh in and I was happy that the numbers on the scale went down.
Wednesday we had a cookie baking day at my mom’s house.Mom, my younger sister and I each had prepared 4 different cookie doughs to be rolled, baked and (some) frosted that day. It was a lot of fun and I sampled 3 cookies (usually just a bite and not a whole cookie).
Our kids sure had a great time. After baking and divvying up the cookies we went swimming at my brother-in-law’s place. Since we’ve had a “cold spell”, the water was quite cold, but the kids and mom got in anyway – I couldn’t find my bathing suit!
Today it’s back to the 100ºF’s.
Yesterday morning I did Day 1 of the C25K week 3. I did it! The first few weeks of doing this were so hard. I think I was jogging faster though. I jog really slowly now. But I feel the burn! And I look forward to the challenge. I think I may even get to week 4 in a week (I’ve usually been doing each week for 2 weeks).
Last night my husband and I had our old disagreement about wants and needs. I was so upset, not at him, but at the circumstances. I want kitchen cupboards and he wants to stay out of debt. Yeah, his way is better, and my arguments are really convincing, but… we really do want to live debt free, and we do have car payments to make (which are actually our only payments). All this to say, I was upset and decided I was going to fulfill a want, right now. And that want was pizza and chocolate.
Yes, it was still way to many calories, but I put pizza sauce, low fat cheese and thin salami slices between two soft tacos and baked it for a few minutes (hope no one just started a craving just now). Then I sliced up a banana and drizzled some melted chocolate and sprinkled some slivered almonds over it. Yum!
So, while it was not the best choice, it was also not the worst it could have been. And no it didn’t make me feel better, but that’s what happened. That was the bad!
Now a good!
I had been thinking about blogging a "pants progress" post like
Ann does, I even had my size 22 pants out and did try them on twice but never did post about it – way to sad! Today, as I was looking for my sweet size 24W jeans, I saw the 22’s sitting there looking at me, challenging me. So I took them out, shook them out and decided again, I am not going to get these babies on. While they were towards the hip area, I thought, I’d better stop, but no, last time I could pull them all the way up, so I pulled them all the way up, then I lay down on my bed to zip them up. Since they’re strechy, it wasn’t hard to get off the bed. But you know what the fun part is? That was three hours ago, and I’m still wearing them. I don’t think I’ll ever take them off. They are snug, but not uncomfortably so. I even went out in public! Just put the long shirt over!
Gotta go find my size 20’s now!
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| A cicada my son found outside, taking off her old clothes. Isn't she a beautiful green! |
Next post and weigh-in is Monday. Tonight we’re having a Christmas dinner at my parents ranch with his employee’s and some neighboring ranch friends, Sunday night – a Christmas program at our home church. Monday and Tuesday are business dinners. Four busy nights!
I’ll be sure to post weigh in on Monday, but it may not be much more until maybe Wednesday or later.
Have a great weekend!
Casey
